Victim of The International Heart Breaker

I don't know where to start..
Not because I'm feeble and can't express my thoughts; oh i have plenty of words. First off, i want to tell you that this sick game you're playing with me
is over. For almost 11 months you eluded me to believe that we could be together. Worst of it is that i loved you despite my better judgment. Contradictory to you, i told everyone about you because i didn't want to keep you a secret. I wasn't ashamed of you. Now i don't know what it is that made u embarrassed of me, but frankly i don't care. Really you've got to be the biggest asshole and heart murderer I've ever known.  . I've never known anyone to string someone so far like this. Worst part of it is that i truly truly loved you more than anyone. Anyone i know can tell you that i have not felt this way for anyone in a very very long time. That says quite a bit.  True love has nothing to do with having to wait to see someone before you can know if you love them. If you truly believe that, God help u . Also true loves doesn't call someone a secret and tell them that they would be hidden for sometime. There's nothing sexy or self respectable about that what so ever. I am not a dog or someone's bitch that's allowed only to exist when they say so or decide it's ok. Everyone told me  i was going the wrong road, but i didn't listen. I loved you , and that's all I've ever done. Every day every hour revolved around your convenience if you never noticed! We were always together when u could make it, i was always awake for you, I was always there to give you some form of assurance or kind words every moment u needed them . Me coming across the globe all the way to see you, another effort to add to comfortable convenience on your end. Everything i did was for you, but you don't realize that do you?? I could have given you so much more than you know. I don't understand how you throw away a person that truly cared and honored you..someone that wanted to be by your side for the rest of what would have been a beautiful life together.  A pity your faith in me didn't match mine in you.  I didn't lose  who i was.. but i did lose my heart. Wouldn't it be interesting if your selfishness kept me from being with someone that actually would have loved me back? Thanks. Thanks for wasting my time, really... and my life .

I'm sure you have a great excuse lined up for being away or what have you... and maybe you don't. Maybe you really are avoiding me.
But in all honesty im done with the "sorrys" No amount of sorrys is ever going to make up for the fact that you dont love me.

I'm done crying. My heart is done dying. I'm done with this shit story of a shit existence that i was allotted by you.

It's over.

Oh yeah, by the way... YOU BROKE MY HEART.  Hope u cope with it better than i, when someone does it to you.

PS. Don't respond. You never did this whole last week, why start now.

Welcome to Read Before Returning To Sender

So the idea for this blog, and hopefully eventually the book; came about on a flight of stairs while exchanging stories and star crossed lover emails with a close friend. After reading the email from the man who she literally destroyed, it made me think about how interesting it was to step into someone else's shoes and feel what they felt or read what came from someone else's mouth to someone that wasn't you. It was like, watching a movie but better because it wasn't written for your amusement or even you. I guess along the lines with hearing someone's secrets or learning that everyone has their vices; I eventually stated to my friend..(while ascending my soap box) that what if someone could take these letters that we all without a doubt have been the senders and receivers; and made it feasible for others to read and retell. Unfortunately we all stare at reality tv far too long, or even find ourselves rubber necking when we should be watching the road ahead (obviously!)
Yet still, we all tend to morbidly ponder the details such as the letters created by love, obsession, depression, jealousy, guilt, and even confession. 

And so, it is to you that i extend this challenge :  Find your letters, either written by you or to you, copy or summarize and email them to vanessathevivacious@gmail.com   I will then post them to this blog and we will thus be sharing, inspiring,   and allowing people to "Read , Before Returning To Sender".
I look forward to this social project and am a firm believer in the idea that knowing someone has been there, makes it so much easier to move on or learn something you didn't know two minutes ago.
Good luck

In good faith, the next post will be a letter written to me, your gracious host

Vanessa The Vivacious