Natas,
Hey you...I miss you...I miss you so much. I still wake up sometimes thinking I’m next to you after I wash my sheets and they smell like that laundry detergent that drenched all your clothes. Remember that time you asked me if you could keep me forever. I need me back now. I have no more heart, no more tears, no more emotion left for what will never be. Why could you never answer that simple question...why could you never just let me go. This year with what was and what wasn’t broke so much of me. Everyday I live those moments over, the day you asked me to be yours, the day you said we couldn’t be anymore, every day after that for a year that you called me back to you for something that wasn’t really love. Why could you never answer that simple question. I’d have something left to give someone that really deserved it, if you just let me go. You didn’t mean everything but you always meant a lot and more then most. Your perfection was in your flaws, your beautiful mind, your interpretation of what no one else saw. You were true love to me. I saw what you were and what you hid in your eyes. I know there was hurt and mistrust there, I wanted you to never feel that...I just wanted to make you happy and make you feel loved. I never wanted to stop loving you. But why...why could you never answer that question. The hurt kept coming after we were no longer us. When you wanted, I kept coming back for what I thought was working on it. I can’t be mad for what you did, for how you treated me, for that night with that other girl, for the hurt, for what I did and for what you did. I try, I sit and I try so hard to be mad...to hate you...but I can’t. I gave “me” to you, I was yours for a year and my love was yours for a year. You were there, but as the boy who could always care, but never really love in return. I want to know...I need to know...why you could never answer that simple question. “Can you tell me that you don’t care about me and that we will never be together”...don’t you see that it would let me go. You always looked at me and said you can’t, and you don’t know what could happen in the future. It’s been a month, and I still don’t have “me” back, I never can until you let “me” go.
Remember that time...that summer day...that summer day in the morning when you asked me if you could keep me forever? I’m still here and I’ll still always love you. One day when you know the answer...the answer to that simple question, you know I’ll still be here and you’ll still have my heart to keep or to let go.
Well you...I’m leaving now. I’ll be back in less then a year. I just want you to know that...that I love you and I’ll miss you. And I’ll see you when it’s right.
See you in a bit luvs,
Rachel
Hey you...I miss you...I miss you so much. I still wake up sometimes thinking I’m next to you after I wash my sheets and they smell like that laundry detergent that drenched all your clothes. Remember that time you asked me if you could keep me forever. I need me back now. I have no more heart, no more tears, no more emotion left for what will never be. Why could you never answer that simple question...why could you never just let me go. This year with what was and what wasn’t broke so much of me. Everyday I live those moments over, the day you asked me to be yours, the day you said we couldn’t be anymore, every day after that for a year that you called me back to you for something that wasn’t really love. Why could you never answer that simple question. I’d have something left to give someone that really deserved it, if you just let me go. You didn’t mean everything but you always meant a lot and more then most. Your perfection was in your flaws, your beautiful mind, your interpretation of what no one else saw. You were true love to me. I saw what you were and what you hid in your eyes. I know there was hurt and mistrust there, I wanted you to never feel that...I just wanted to make you happy and make you feel loved. I never wanted to stop loving you. But why...why could you never answer that question. The hurt kept coming after we were no longer us. When you wanted, I kept coming back for what I thought was working on it. I can’t be mad for what you did, for how you treated me, for that night with that other girl, for the hurt, for what I did and for what you did. I try, I sit and I try so hard to be mad...to hate you...but I can’t. I gave “me” to you, I was yours for a year and my love was yours for a year. You were there, but as the boy who could always care, but never really love in return. I want to know...I need to know...why you could never answer that simple question. “Can you tell me that you don’t care about me and that we will never be together”...don’t you see that it would let me go. You always looked at me and said you can’t, and you don’t know what could happen in the future. It’s been a month, and I still don’t have “me” back, I never can until you let “me” go.
Remember that time...that summer day...that summer day in the morning when you asked me if you could keep me forever? I’m still here and I’ll still always love you. One day when you know the answer...the answer to that simple question, you know I’ll still be here and you’ll still have my heart to keep or to let go.
Well you...I’m leaving now. I’ll be back in less then a year. I just want you to know that...that I love you and I’ll miss you. And I’ll see you when it’s right.
See you in a bit luvs,
Rachel
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