Arizona i miss you so much

Baby, I miss you so much, talking with you today has done a world of good for me, i saw you look at me, really look at me today. crisis situations make people show their true colors. it brings out the honest truth about someone. but i know that you know that already.
You know what baby there are people that search for what we have for their entire life, never to find their soul mate. I did i found you. ever step of my life has built me to be the man that i am God has a plan. I needed to go through the hard parts of my life so i would know what it was like so i can be the support for those that are truly going to need me when the time comes.
I feel my love for you growing more and more everyday. I am real baby, my love is true to you my love. today when i took you outside and had you face the sunrise and close your eyes i wanted you to feel what i feel. i wanted you to understand that it is the warmth of the sun that i can liken most to the love of God. I wanted you to feel that. it starts as if a kiss on your cheek but then it begins to penetrate deep inside. and that must be close to the feeling you have when you are in my arms. i can never compare to the love that God gives us, but i can promise a true deep pure love that will outlast anyone else. what will happen between now and the day i am able to hold you in my arms again will never be brought up, i will never hold it against you because i know and understand why you have had to make the choice you have. but my love will not fade, it will not slip away into darkness to be forgotten. every time i think about the "curb factor" it makes me smile. do you remember that baby? it seems like so long ago.
what i told you on the phone.... that you are an amazingly beautiful woman inside and out. ..... i meant it NO ONE should ever tell you or make you feel any different. dont let anything make you feel like you need to change for one reason or another. dont let that get in the way of answering the call that we were both given. it will become clear what you need to do. it may seem like it is impossible but it wont be, i am not saying its going to be easy but we will get through it. you are being given answers the what kind of men we both are. you are being shown the way, but you need to open your heart completely to truly see......
i will not waiver, i will not give, i will remain devoted and true to you baby, to us. no matter what. you are the love of my life. you are my best friend. just remember everything happens for a reason, you were having doubts about me, you were questioning me, so this has happened to show you, so i can show you what kind of a man i am. I am your friend, i am your protector, i am your partner, i am your support, your rock, I am YOUR LOVE!!! others may have claimed to be, and may have been able to manipulate their way to make you believe they were something that they really are not but i think you are beginning to see that.
I am the one that will withstand the storm, i am the one that will still be there with you in the end. I believe it, i have faith, i know that you love me and i know that we are meant to be.

LOVE ALWAYS,
"N"